Its funny how, when you tell people that you sometimes vomit after eating, the never mention it again, whereas they are always busy going on about how i should stop drinking, smoking, being promiscuous - yadayada.
Hey i hadn't had sex in 4 month when the-ex and I broke up, so excuse me for being wanting

Had Cologne "sleepover" last night.
Didn't really feel like it actually and i think i was kinda giving him a hard time, being pissy and all. Got into talking about the-ex and after 2 glasses of Merlot i was giving him the full story about the painsubstitutingpain-thing i've got going, well guess he thinks i'm fucked up now - which however didnt stop him fucking me later that night - hmm. Wasn't that good actually, but i think i'm on a powertrip at the moment.
Having men want you badly makes one feel very powerful, and for someone like me who doesn't feel all that powerful at the moment, that kinda helps.

How can it feel, this wrong
From this moment
How can it feel this wrong

Storm.. in the morning light
I feel
No more can I say
Frozen to myself

I got nobody on my side
And surely that ain't right

Also very effective is getting a brazillian waxing - dude that hurt like hell ähm, alot, but so does so many other things

As i found out today, getting your teeth drilling without anesthetic is a very effective tool to destract oneself from pain